Last week was a doozy of a week. It turns out it takes a lot of effort to get a household back to normal after being gone for 15 days with kids. We were welcomed back with loads of dirty laundry, dust mites, heaps of mail, long grass, you know how it is. And kids who desperately needed to get back to their own beds and schedules, for their sakes and mine. SO, we muddled through, and I’m happy to report that we made it safely to the other side.
BUT, as I was busily working to get my sanity back last week, I completely neglected to turn to the One who could have helped me get back with much more ease. Yep, my quiet times were completely tossed to the wayside. I didn’t lean on the Lord at all, and instead tried to do it on my own, which resulted in me being a crabby wife and mom who snapped at my husband more times than I’d like to admit.
At church yesterday, I had one of those Sundays where I felt so far from the Lord, that it was almost difficult to fully engage in worship because I was so sad about how I’d handled the week. I felt ashamed, like I didn’t deserve to bask in His glory. But that’s the beautiful thing about our Savior. He knows we don’t deserve it, but He wants to meet us where we are anyway. And that’s exactly what happened. After a few minutes, I found myself worshiping with tears rolling down my face as I rested in the comfort of the one who knows every overwhelmed and frustrating moment I’ve been through. He knows the type of week we had, and He knows during those moments we need Him to rescue us all the more.
There were so many things about yesterday’s service that were divinely applicable to my week, but this song specifically touched my soul. Such a simple reminder, but also so powerful. We need the Lord. EVERY HOUR we need Him.
Lord, I Need You (By: Chris Tomlin)
“Lord, I come, I confess, Bowing here I find my rest. Without you I fall apart. You’re the one that guides my heart.
Lord, I need You, oh I need you. Every hour I need you. My one defense, my righteousness. Oh God, how I need you.
Where sin runs deep, Your grace is more. Where grace is found is where You are. And where You are Lord I am free. Holiness is Christ in me. Yes where You are Lord, I am free. Holiness is Christ in me.
So teach my song to rise to You, When temptation comes my way. And when I cannot stand I’ll fall on You. Jesus you’re my hope and stay. And when I cannot stand I’ll fall on You. Jesus you’re my hope and stay.”
As we go through this week, let’s remember that we need Him every hour. Every moment. Through the simplest of tasks, and through the most difficult things to navigate, we need Him through it all. Without Him, I am nothing but a wife and mom who has a sinful default to react in selfish ways, but with Him I have supernatural power to love like He does.
Lord, be with us as we serve our families!